“The only thing that can make you completely happy is contentment.” I received that in a text message five months ago. Five months ago when I was still HOME. Five months ago when I decided to leave all things familiar, all things I love and head for a place so completely opposite in order […]

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build all these defenses. You build up a whole suit of armor so that nothing can hurt […]

Did the feeling of disappointment come bubbling up to the surface when I learned that my second ultrasound report fail to reveal my baby’s gender? Well, honestly, I didn’t expect to know before that. (Not that I didn’t want to know altogether.)
I am probably experiencing a hormonal change of tune right now, or whatever this […]

The whole morning proved to be an unproductive one. I was supposed to be working on my program, but I was whiling away my time with some forms of distractions. I was again so sleepy with my thoughts in disarray.
I seem to get tired easily (for one, starting to find it difficult to bend), but […]

i love you. you know that. i know that.
you love me. you know that. i know that.
But there’s just sometimes when i feel like i don’t want to love you as much as i love you right now. Where i hope that i could find a way to lessen the love that i feel. That […]

When I initially tried to write this, I was so sleepy without cure that I ended up doing nothing at all that’s work-related. Two days later, I’m still as disorganized. Sometimes doing my weekday routine of waking up early to feed our appetites (mine and my baby’s) though I slept late the night before makes […]

is the one I’m taking, or the one I thought I’ve always taken?
“…People do not think very much about death. They spend their lives worrying about absurdities; they put things off, and fail to notice important moments. They dont take risks, because they think it’s dangerous. They complain a lot, but are afraid to take […]

I am sad and am denying it no more…
Sad that soon I’ll be loosing or rather leaving almost everything that is familiar
Sad because all things seem so surreal, unfamiliar and threatening
Sad that time passed so fast and literally left me nowhere
Sad to realize that I need to run really fast to catch up with time; […]

How do you answer someone with a skeptic mind? Specially if that someone has experienced something “that could leave a mark in the heart” in the middle of a suppose to be “fun” adventure…
Perhaps you yourself is a skeptic…
Have you ever asked yourself, what answers could satisfy my questions why I get hurt? Be it […]

As the twentieth century draws to a close, heads shake at the high divorce rate, the brutalization of the love affair, left in neglect or disarray. Leave that old lover. Move on. Take the A train. But in the dark of your room you may be moved to admit to yourself that you only THOUGHT […]